Im still love sick.
and It still pains every second of my waking minutes… =[
not really sure how im gonna ride this one out if im honest..
Cause my love will never end.
Okay.. so..
I miss you.
that is all.
But i actually think it would be a good thing to get ‘faith in trust’ tattoo’d on me.
…something to remind me.
There’s so many quotes that keep me going.. its just so easy to forget them if they’re not there to remind you.
Instead of constantly looking for reassurance… i can just look to myself.
To remind me of these troubled times.. and the moments when my real life journey begins.. progress.
I think i need to start to embrace my mental state.. accept it. instead of denying how i feel, letting it get messy. I want to grant myself the serenity to accept the things I cannot change; courage to change the things I can; and wisdom to know the difference.
boredom!!
What is your favorite Relentless flavor? The green one Do you have a wireless keyboard and mouse? yes but not on my laptop no.. Last sporting event you watched on tv or in person? urm… =/ womens england match i think.. Who makes the best fudge? No one.. i hate fudge. Do you like it when toothpaste bubbles in your mouth? not really.. it makes me wanna puke tbh Do you believe that the world is gonna end at 2012? nah… How many songs are on your iPod or MP3 Player? i dont use one anymore tbf.. its all about my phone.. and LOADS Can you swear inside your house? yeas… but i do get told off if mother isnt drunk lol.. Have you ever had a pet goldfish? yes.. two. table and clock =] When did you last eat waffles? urm.. not so long ago tbh.. we have them at work What is the most overrated thing in your opinion? penis. nods Do you have a video Skype account? yes What color is your bed comforter? my what now…? Does being in love make you gain weight? i suppose it does… thank fuck im losing weight! Dumbest person you know? and why? oah god.. idk.. hmm.. theres loads!! Do your parents have home videos of you as a kid? my dad has one… my mum has another. How old is your oldest cousin? Older than my dad!! like 50… If you HAD to get a tattoo, where and what would it be? im all tatted up atm.. but if i were to get another.. sleeve plz. Do you think Obama has tried drugs? of course! What color is your bra or boxers? both black What is your favorite radio station? kerrang What ethnicity was your last ex? born and bred british baby =] What brand is your refrigerator? not a clue.. it looks like a cupboard =/ How many people do you know that are pregnant? 3 atm Do you have a picture with your middle finger up? yeah When is the last time you went to a birthday party? urm.. kass’s i think.. What is the best thing to happen to you this year so far? Falling in love How long have you lived in the house you live in? since i was 17 Do you read a newspaper daily? nope.. i used to Anything your really afraid of? losing the ones i love.. and spiders.. Do you read tabloids? ^^^ Have you ever had a really bad haircut? yes. THANKS Do you like your peanut butter crunchy or creamy? creamy What is the scariest movie you’ve ever seen? urmm.. none tbh… i dont get scared. im too busy laughing at everyone else freakin right out.. Have you ever ridden a skateboard? yeah man!! i even had a dream about mine the other night.. Do you drink enough water on a daily basis? i have recently tbh Would you burn the Union jack for a million £’s? yeah.. of course… i am not that patriotic!! The main thing you cant leave your house without? my phone.. Do you think the economy is improving yet? of course not… were all about to kill each other.. the worlds gone mad recently!! When was the last time you read a book? yesterday… THERE WAS FUCK ALL ELSE TO DO!! Where did you get that shirt you’re wearing? It belonged to an ex.. clearly looks better on me. nods Do you play pranks on April Fools Day? No.. cause i never remember! Things you want to say to an ex? An ex… hmm… Your a myspace whore. and you deserve to be alone forever! A date you would love to go on? I would love her to take me on a trip along the saine.. and have a meal in a little french cafe.. then up the efile tower to love like rabbits.. nods. Something disgusting you do? I.. urmm.. pick my nose then wipe it on people to show my affection for them. nods.. The best thing to happen to you this week? The best thing to happen this week has also turned out to the my worst.. lets not go there. 3 things you are proud about your personality? Im open minded.Im loyal.G.S.O.H….
okok now im still bored! :@
Council. house. and. violence.
Anyone heard of the White brothers? Those little children getting ASBO’s all over the place and beating up their girlfriends? Well if you have, you’ve heard of Weston. Aside from the activities of trying to keep your wallet within your grasp (a chain attached to your trousers helps) there is nothing to do during the day. The high street merely caters for chavs, with at least 5 clothes/shoe shops, all for young tarts on a budget, and about a thousand mobile phone shops, because if all their children don’t have the latest Nokias, they just won’t be ‘cool’. There is no CD shop. They simply go to Tesco and pick up whichever awful dance remix album is on the shelf this week, and then play exactly the same song off it for the next 5 days. To end. If you happen to be male, white and wearing a full-length black coat, you will instantly hear many cries of “eer, iss tha fookin matrix innit!!” and that horrific high pitched squeeling laugh as ‘Wayne’ comes over to try to ‘spark tha’ goffic wanker right out’. The laughter stops rapidly if you then uncover the pole hidden behind your back and put the motherfucker in Hospital. Try to catch them with their tiny little balls and stop them breeding. Good luck, and happy hunting.
They are the model for the other wannabe chavs, apparently, who also go around in their crappy modded Novas’ and Escorts’ trying to deafen anything within about 3 miles. Then they stop at McDonalds drive-thru. Oh dear. God help any none-chav in the vicinity, for they will be subject to the most vile and idiotic verbal abuse these mentally challenged morons can think of (or can copy off their nightly watchings of Eastenders). But this is nothing. Oh no. Avoid, at all costs if you value your life, The Bournville Estate. Just to be fair, there are some decent people there. But they are the minority. The rest are council-house dwelling, Burberry/Kappa wearing Scum with at least 15 different STD’s each, only 3 of which are listed inmedical dictionaries. They will steal anything. I heard a tree went missing from someone’s garden a while ago.
But anyway. There are an increasing number of goth/emo kids who can usually be found in the Italian Gardens (what’s so italian about them?) making a complete bloody mess of everything and throwing each other in the fountain, but overall the town is still full of chavs. If you happen to be near the sea front on a friday night, you will see the same 3 cars circulating endlessly, punctuated by the occasional tacky white limo full of 13 yr old slappers leaning out the windows and inviting anyone over 3 ft tall to join in. They promptly head for Vision, the central hub of Chav entertainment, where the children get paralytic and throw up outside a kebab house later, and all the over 30′s (or ‘granddads’ around here) perv on them all and try to get off with anything with a pulse. Saturdays are almost exactly the same.
I really do dislike you.. and frankly i couldnt give a shit anymore. Who do you think you are?? like honestly. What does this really comes down to.. There’s bestfriends, and then there’s….. and that is just abit fucked up if you ask me tbh. But then again…… hmm. idk.
At the end of the day…. why should i have to feel like im competing for my gfs affections… when everytime i see you you look at me like your more than me… and you mean more than me. when actually your nothing but an annoying, self centered knob most of the time.
prick
